Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make straight your paths.
The last few weeks have been difficult for my family. My grandmother became very ill and was confined to our home. She was battling breast cancer and started to have intense pain. It hurt to see her in so much pain. On December 4, 2012, she passed away.
When she passed we were immediately thrown into funeral preparations. We looked at caskets, flowers, and clothes. We sorted through pictures, wrote an obituary, and put together a funeral service. We moved through the tasks before us with heavy hearts and little sleep.
A week later, it still seems surreal. Sleep still doesn’t come easy, but I suppose things are improving. I went back to work yesterday. Though I am going through the motions, my mind keeps coming back to the fact that she was just here. I was just giving her medicine. I was just washing her face. We miss her already, and it will be an adjustment going forward without her.
In honor of my grandma, I’d like to share some lessons I learned from her.
Be generous. My grandma was not a minimalist in any way. She had lots of stuff. But she was incredibly generous with her stuff. She gave clothes and jewelry away all the time. Though she had a lot, she didn’t hold it tightly. Her hands were always open to give.
Money isn’t everything. I remember when I was considering marrying my boyfriend at the time. He had no money. She told me that if I loved him, I should marry him — even if he didn’t have any money. She said to trust the Lord. He could make a way for us and provide for us. We might have to work harder. We might have to go without some things. But if we trusted God, he would help. She encouraged me to follow my heart instead of chasing financial status.
Honor God and he will honor you. She said this to me regularly. She taught me not to be ashamed to tell people that I am a Christian and that I go to church. She taught me to honor God by serving him at my local church. She encouraged me to give God credit for what he has done — no matter who was listening. She lived out these principles, and she was incredibly blessed.
There are soooo many things I learned from my grandma. I learned about cooking and sewing and bargain shopping. I learned that “right is right.” I could write for hours about her, but I will simply end by saying that my grandma was an amazing woman of God. We already miss her. But we know that she is with Jesus, and we rejoice because this separation is only temporary.